NF - How Could You Leave Us

How could you leave us so unexpected?

We were waiting, we were waiting

For you but you just left usWe needed you, I needed you

Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills

But I do know what it's like to be a witness to kills

Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real

I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah

Welcome to the bottom of hell

They say pain is a present, let me out of my cell

You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well

Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell

Into my pillowcases, you say you coming to get us

Then call a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated

I'm in a room with a parent that I barely know

Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes

I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?

I guess that pills are more important, all you have to say is no

But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you

I know you gone but I can still feel you

Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?

How could you leave us here?

How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?

Hey

I got this picture in my room and it kills me

But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing

Now a relationship is something we won't ever have

Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?

You shoulda been there when I graduated

Told me you love me and congratulations

Instead you left us at the window waiting

Where you at mom? What you don't understand is where you at huh?

Yeah, I know those drugs got you held captive

I can see it in your eyes, they got you captured

Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing

What you don't realise and what you not grasping

That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand

I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened

I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes

If you really cared for me, then where you at then?

Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?

How could you leave us here?

How would you leave us? Why would you leave us?

Hey

Our last conversation, you were sat in the living room

Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to

You started crying, telling me this isn't you

Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune

You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?

They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you

Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult

Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you

Took me everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral

Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful

I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you

All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you

They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hallow

Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching ma

Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us?

How could you leave us here?

How would you leave us? Why would you leave us?

Hey

(Sobbing) Sometimes I think about like, sometimes I think about things like, you know, when I have kids, you won't be there, you know? You won't be there for any of that, I'll never get to see you again, sometimes I wish I would have just called you, I wish I would have just picked up the phone, wish you were here, I mean you should of been there for us, you should have been here, those pills got you, right? Them pills got you, right? I wish you were here